This is such a random yet honest post. I was watching the Today Show the other day and they were interviewing past Super Models. They were all so skinny and they all had silky straight hair. For those of you who don't know, I have naturally curly/ wavy hair that is very thin and fine. My mom loves it and I hate it. When I was pregnant with my daughter I prayed and prayed she would have thick, straight hair like her father and she almost does. It is thicker than mine and has just a enough wave to be pretty. I lover her hair! And I'm going to take credit for it seeing as how God answer my prayer. :)
The sad thing is that my self esteem isn't high enough to fight against media's message to have straight hair and be skinny. I have been blow drying my hair straight every morning since I was a Freshman in high school. This became a greater challenge when I went to college in the ever so humid College Station, Tx. Sadly I've received the media's message to have straight hair and be skinny. After growing 2 humans in my body I am not the same size or shape I once was and it is heart breaking everyday. I remember reading Bringing Up Girls by Dr. Dobson and it explained how women have struggled with this since the dawn of time, something about how our brains are wired. But I don't want to pass on my insecurities to my precious daughter. I find comfort in knowing that I am fearfully and wonderfully made and that God doesn't make mistakes, but Satan keeps creeping in and telling me otherwise. It is a daily battle to be comfortable in my own skin. I hate hearing the phrase, "nature got it wrong." Now my prayers for my daughter have changed. I pray she will be stronger than her mother and be able to not allow media's body image messages to seep into her brain. I pray she will be will call on God's Word to help her fight against these terrible thoughts that she isn't good enough or pretty enough. Her name, Kellyn, does mean powerful so I think she can do it. I pray she can do it. I rebuke Satan so she can it.
"The purpose of your authority in the lives of your children is not to hold them under your power, but to empower them to be self-controlled people living freely under the authority of God." - Shepherding a Child's Heart by Tedd Tripp.
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